Flowers for You - 4/27/12
I know these aren't real, just pictures it's true,
But its the only safe way I can send flowers to you.Just close your eyes and see me handing you this bouquet,
And know that its twin will be on our kitchen table some day.
It's sad these flowers don't smell, but at least they won't die,
Let that be a symbol of the love between you and I.
The weeks have flown by, but each day brings something new,
The months have flown by, and I'm still right next to you.
Happy six months to the beautiful woman I love,
You truly are my angel sent to me from Heaven above.
Scared to Make My Dreams Come True - 4/10/12
The texts you send, and the words you say,
Tell me that there is no other way.
I have to make a choice, its either him or you,
But this is breaking my heart, tearing me in two.
I'm scared of what will happen, don't want anyone to be hurt,
But I'm afraid this is an issue we can no longer avert.
I no longer see the sun, all I feel is the cold rain,
I didn't want this to happen, I didn't want this pain.
You ask how much I love you, are my actions not enough?
What about the bracelet you wear? My wrist bares the same cuff.
You say I don't feel the same way you do,
What more do I have to do, to prove my feelings are true?
Because of all the pain, I've had in the past,
I'm afraid to get close, afraid it won't last.
I've learned to be cautious, not to open my heart,
For if I do, and it does end, my whole world will fall apart.
You tell me you love me, I trust every word that you say,
I know you wish we were together, in my arms you wish to lay.
But just because I don't leave him, doesn't mean I don't want you,
I'm just scared to take that first step, scared to make my dreams come true.
My Whole World - 4/6/12
We talk more than touch, shed more tears than smiles,
But I'd do anything to be with you, walk a million miles.
The look in your eyes as my fingers caress your face,
Reminds me there is not a more beautiful place,
Than laying next to you, my sweet, gorgeous girl,
You're all I ever think about, my life, my whole world.
Yearning To Go Back - 4/3/12
Sometimes it's hard, to find the right word to say,
But as I sit here and write this, I feel there is no other way.
I held your hand, and you covered your eyes to hide the falling tears,
It broke my hear to watch you cry, it was one of my biggest fears.
Was it right for us to meet? Even knowing it wouldn't be for long?
I only had a few hours with you, before I had to fight to be strong.
There's nothing that I regret, from our first kiss to our last,
But I'm sad we couldn't make time stop, instead it moved too fast.
I wish we could go back, I want to again hold you tight,
To keep you safe right next to me, as we make love all night.
On My Own - 3/30/12
I used to love you, but that was before,
I used to want you, but not anymore.
Words can't describe all the pain you put me through,
I wish my body would have listened to what my heart already knew.
When you got what you wanted, you would then turn me away,
The actions you've displayed, are the words you never had to say.
My wounds can't be buried, they're cut way too deep,
Every night I as God to help me, as I lay down to sleep.
To grant me the courage to continue alone,
But overtime I know, I'll be fine on my own.
The Hardest Thing - 3/30/12
The hardest thing I've ever had to do,
Was sit there and watch as I broke your heart in two.
Mine's in pieces, just the same,
But if I didn't do this now, we'd be just playing a game.
I'm sorry that this hurts, sorry I can't stay,
But my hands are tied, I feel there is no other way.
'Nothing Gold Can Stay' - 3/24/12
These past few weeks, I've laid awake,
My thoughts drifting to you,
And I can't help wondering, wherever you are,
Are you thinking of me too?
What's on your mind? Are our thoughts the same?
Or am I just playing the loser in life's cruelest game?
I tried so hard to protect myself,
But my feelings wouldn't stay away,
I guess Robert Frost was right,
'Nothing Gold Can Stay.'
Fooling Ourselves - 3/18/12
We're fooling ourselves, believing it will last,
We're lying to ourselves, talking about forever,
I'm surprises we've even made it this far,
But one day we will part.
If I could go back and start again, I wouldn't change a thing,
Cause it's only through you, that I have learned who I am.
My Fear – 12/23/11
There will come a time,
When you will have to choose,
The path you know all too well,
And the one you say you desire.
And I’ll be waiting on you,
To hold my hand and walk with me,
But you will never show.
For you will take the comfort path,
And with him you’ll remain.
You Are Mine - 12/3/11
The bracelet you wear,
Like a cuff on your wrist,
Shows that you belong to me.
This gift that I gave you,
Reminds you of me.
You are not my slave,
But you are my sub.
This is the vow I make to you.
Through thick and thin,
You are mine,
You are my baby girl.
Comment left on Lit by kitten1964: " 'This is the vow I make to you....' Beautiful reminder of the Dom/me's responsibility to the sub...the love and care S/He should show to the one who has given Him/Her such a precious gift."
Forever and A Day - 11/29/11
I yearn to be yours,
To say that you are mine,
You mean so much to me.
These are my words,
This I promise you.
From here until forever,
Forever and a day.
Always and Forever - 11/28/11
I close my eyes and you're all I see,
My arms wrapped around you,
Keeping you close to me.
Promising I'll always be here,
Promising I'll never leave.
Wanting you. Only you.
Always and forever.
Two Rings - 11/27/11
Two rings are worn everyday, one on each hand.
One is a symbol of the woman who's mine,
The other's my wedding band.
Two separate sides of my body, two separate sides of my soul,
Where I feel one has made a void, the other one fills the hole.
Heartbreak Remembered – 10/16/11
I still remember your touch, after all of this time,
Every time I close my eyes, I go back again to that night.
The softness of your fingers, as they grazed my skin,
The feel of your lips as our tongues danced in the moonlight.
Requiring the sensual caress that only you could give,
The converging of our bodies, making the two of us become one.
Struggling in the aftermath, although entwined around you,
Knowing that with the morning light, the end of paradise will come.
Understanding that you will never look at me the same way,
But yearning for just one more chance, to feel that way again.
A Haiku for You - 5/2/11
My heart is like glass,
Shattered from all of the pain,
From all you have caused.
Back When You Cared - 10/27/09
You broke my heart, tore it into jagged little pieces.
You promised it would last, no matter what happened,
But those words were just lies.
I can't look at you, I can't think about you,
I can't talk to you, without remembering how it used to be,
Back when you cared about me.
Night - 1/25/09
Night - its the world in which I live,
The pitch black darkness blinds my eyes,
No starts in the sky, no moonlight to follow,
No emotions left to lead me home.
My body is drowning in the pain I no longer feel,
My heart beats one final song.
Fallen - 12/9/08
I'm bleeding but no one sees, I'm crying for help but no one comes,
I'm alone, I don't know where, but it is dark.
I hear screams that are too familiar, my comrads who have fallen.
I tried to help them, I gave it my all, they pushed me away,
Told me to leave them, To continue on my own.
I walked away, but now I have fallen,
I need their help.
They can't see my blood, they don't hear my screams,
I am alone.
Have You Ever - 11/08
Have you ever wanted something so bad?
You would do anything for it? Risk everything for it?
Have you ever been so close to your dreams? You obsessed over them?
Held them too close? And in a minute, they were gone?
Do you know how it feels to have everything you’ve ever wanted?
And in an instant you are left with nothing?
I have…and I am sorry...for everything.
Jaded - 3/29/05
You left me jaded, I could never love another,
You left me jaded, jagged, incomplete without you.
Our love was supposed to last forever, until the end of time.
But now you are gone, there's another in your arms.
I thought I would never again feel the pain,
I trusted you to keep me safe,
But now you have gone, the pain has come back again,
And now there is no one to dry my tears.
You left me jaded, I could never love another.
The way that I still love you.
Don't - 3/29/03
Don't tell me you're sorry, I don't think I can believe you.
Don't look into my eyes, I don't want you to see me cry.
Don't try to kiss me, your lips were on someone else's.
Don't try to hold me, I don't want to fall for you all over again.
Right now I just need to be alone,
To sort out these feelings, I never expected to have.
Please help me to understand, why you broke my heart,
Just don't try to comfort me, I need some time to cry.
The Ending - 12/2/02
Tears are falling down my face, I want to wipe them away, but I can't.
They are the only feelings that I show, a remembrance of what we had.
How I once felt about you, how you once felt about me.
What changed? When did it change? Why did it change?
Where was I?
But life will go on, as it always has before, though I don't want to let you go.
I don't want to have to say good-bye, it ended far too soon.
I want to go back to how it was, the way it was before.
You and I in each other's arms, making our dreams come true.
A part of me will now be missing, for you took my heart.
But I'll go on like I always have, turning to others for support.
One day I'll be able to face love again, and not shed any tears.
But until then, I must find out, once again, where in life I belong.